MellowDrama

You know it when the air in the rooms has a warmth to it. The light is just a shade mellower for you soul to feel comfortable in. The music that drifts around is of the song that plays in your head and heart. The comfort is not in the depth of the mattresses or the breadth of the sofa but an embrace. The high ceiling does not bar your ambition Instead that is where you hang your dreams to be picked and worked upon the next morn. The ordinary is my routine yet I find a newness to it Every time I walk back from the world in to my home

i need to bring so many changes about myself. i keep making mental notes of tings to do and keep forgetting them. i must start my day with prayers and meditation. i must drive else i wil forget. i must wear those lenses. i must sit down with myself. i must seek help to heal and give myself a new coat of paint. i mustlearn to control my temper and tongue and facial expressions. i must plaster a smile on to my face for ever. i must not raise my voice with chunnu.

are there times when there is noithing to say? the happiest times that i can think of are the times that i have spent in the company of people but not chit chatting or in serious discussions but looking out of the window, reading my book, listening to music on the headphones....not shattering silence. in the comfort of the knowledge that when my trance breaks and i smile to share the peace within i will be met with a smile conveying the same sentiment.

i worry a lot these days. about sub, chun, myself...actually everyone. i have always been sensitive but these days i hv gone two extra miles and worry like a maniac. that is to say everyday iam thinking of something to worry about the whole day. my fav topic these days is sub in hyderabad. two days back it was chun's potty but changing her multivits has done the trick. on nov 26 last week when mumbai was terrorised, i was suffering in chandigarh. i, for the first time understood, why those men are called terrorists. they had not terrorised that city but had struck terror and frightened me here, so many kilometers away. i latched all my doors, dropped curtains, locked myself in a room along with my daughter and clutched my phone. i wonder why i did not arm myself with some weapon. i think i was out of my wits. i have always wanted to write like ruskin bond, i mean the stuff that he writes about, the mundane, the daily activities but now i think that won't happen because those sw

lost and found has been the case of my days. lost a baby but found immense joy in the second one. lost my job but found i had some skills as a homemaker. was beginning to loose myself. haven't written in days, don't read very often and when i do it is magazines like good house keeping. found the fear of loosing loved ones very close to my heart, lost the fear of spending time in the kitchen cooking meals.

so I said the last time that I will tell you guys about my work. I work as a journalist. Now that is supposed to be a very interesting and adventurous job. Journalism is also a field that gives you the freedom to be creative like the work that i do. i work on two papers. one is for kids and second for teenagers. Being a journo (that is the slang for journalist and slang is very informal usage of vocabulary) is a lot of fun because i get to write and express myself as i want to. working on the kid's magazine which unfortunately will be closed now was great because i could design it any which way. there were no set rules, nthing that was to be done week after week so there was no monotony- which is lack of variety. the mag (slang for magazine) was called YO! It stood for Young Ones. Though I did not like the name much, I had not given it this name, what I liked was the name of a mag on similar lines like YO! being made by some people working for aMumbai-based newspaper DNA. It was c

I have been meaning to talk to you about this one thing for quite a while but the I had not been doing any raeding myself to be able to tell you how important is it to spend times with book. You guys will get busy with a lot of stuff as you grow up but I would wish that you always have a book by your side. Books can be your best friends. Also writing, so a diary or a notepad as well. Books entertain you, guide you, help you learn. They teach you without testing you. Writing helps you gather your thoughts and make sense out of them. There will be times when a lot might be happening around you and inside your head as well, so if you write all the thoughts coming to you, you will get a better picture of circumstances. Writing also helps you learn quickly and forever. Writing also helps you to regain calm and control when you might be feeling a little lost in this big world. How you write will reflect what all have you read. Writing can be so much fun. ou can write stories, poems, your wo