i am missing having a friend near by. the need to confide, to gossip, exchange woes, talk about infatuations and crushes, have someone to tell me things will get better. suggest ways and options. show me the path. share notes on books, the music. review the films.
i think all the friends that last out after times of seperation are the friends that we need imminently in our lives.
tenz is the fone a friend. we haven't seen each other since past 3 years or so and we rarely call but once we do and start talking about recently read books, new people in our lives- it is difficult to end the conversation.
loveleen is the soup friend. she is warm and heals.
harish is my all weather friend. he listens without interrupting to all my gharelu chik chik. he has never shied from pulling me up when i have been in doldrums. he is the friend whose presence is uplifting.
There is a shield friend. the one who saves you from your own self via empathising and not sympathising. he doesn't let me berate and beat myself.
shagufta is the 'i know you are there for me friend'. we have shared silences, journeys, yum food and becoming mommies.
i miss some people with whom i have lost contact over the time. i miss manisha whose enthusiasm and optimism and her faith in me rejuvenated me like nothing else does. i miss kiran. i miss her all day long yak-yak and wisdom. i miss tikoo.
unfortunately all of these people and some more are busy bodies and geographically far far away. i miss all of them. i miss having the physical comfort of a lap to cry in or lie in after a hard day's work. i miss the playful fight over the bill. i miss the joking backslaps which would turn in to a full game of chase and hit. dear god i need a friend right now to unburden and to learn again laugh out loud.